I quietly hide...
from the pretense of life
where its okay to break down
I openly cry...
tears flow; hot and heavy
its easier when no one is watching
I willingly confess...
embracing the ghosts of my past
a brave act of acceptance
I gradually heal...
investing half an hour a day
to think about new beginnings
in the shower, the pain washes away.
Mar 19, 2012
Sep 7, 2011
Overheard online
Girl X to Guy Y during one of 'those' discussions - "If I ever have to commit suicide, I'll jump from your ego level to your IQ level."
Sep 4, 2011
Sep 3, 2011
the new. the old.
new city, new friends, new job, new life, new dreams. new me.
old memories, old pictures, old songs, old friends, old scars. still me.
old memories, old pictures, old songs, old friends, old scars. still me.
Aug 27, 2011
That perfect guy....
"Maybe someday I will find the guy for who I will feel like giving it all up. And that guy won't even have to ask me, because if he does, then he's not that guy. Does that make sense to you?" - The Diary of a Single Girl
Aug 17, 2011
creativity in chaos
Going through a long period of what is commonly called 'the writer's block', I have recently resurfaced on the beloved blog. While I am glad that I made it out of that dark corner, I kept trying to analyse it to figure out what went wrong. Part of that process was to find inspiration in my own work, calling for a thorough re-read of each post since I started 'the Sushi Bar' in 2007.
Then it suddenly came to me.... there is a strong positive correlation of the quality of the written piece with the frame of mind/phase of life I am in. If a graph had to represent these, then the flying peaks of happiness and deepest troughs of depression seemed to inspire the most beautiful work out of me.
What an irony. Here I am with my larger aim in life hovering around seeking stability and peace in life , hoping to balance these ac-dc phases of emotional turmoil and reach a 'zen' state of constant calm. Does that mean that I have to give up the deep spurts of creativity that emerge from these intense periods in my life?
Will I become boring and lose the edge if I attain 'zen'?
Then it suddenly came to me.... there is a strong positive correlation of the quality of the written piece with the frame of mind/phase of life I am in. If a graph had to represent these, then the flying peaks of happiness and deepest troughs of depression seemed to inspire the most beautiful work out of me.
What an irony. Here I am with my larger aim in life hovering around seeking stability and peace in life , hoping to balance these ac-dc phases of emotional turmoil and reach a 'zen' state of constant calm. Does that mean that I have to give up the deep spurts of creativity that emerge from these intense periods in my life?
Will I become boring and lose the edge if I attain 'zen'?
Aug 14, 2011
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